dreeshay_chanel

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 20:03:57 GMT

okay so someone fucked up my livejournal.
and i honestly dont know to fix it.

These are a few of my favorite things..

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 19:26:01 GMT

i think i have lived up to my word.
at least for the most part.
im definatly surrounding myself
with positive people.
im pretty sure about that.

brian is definatly amazing.
i was his art project.
things are kinda like they used to be.
maybe thats not always good though.
i definatly miss a few people.
i most definatly miss shane.

i look horrible.
but those two girls i will always love.
they have both been there for me and
we have gone through our share of drama.
but in the end we are always there for
each other.
i love it.
thats how friends should be in my opinion.
i miss ell ell.

i also miss herr...

he will always be my best friend.

blahhhhhhh so i miss alot of you and i
would like to get ahold of some of you.

i <3 shane.

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 17:56:11 GMT

okay well i have been dumb.
and mean.
but it's not only me.
i really honestly love very, very few.
and shane brown i love you.
and i always will.
i'm gunna try and stop being retarded.
yesturday was my birthday.
woohoo im 17.
i can see R rated movies.
fuck yes! haha

blahhh

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 17:53:22 GMT

thoday is friday the thirteenth.
how exciting haha.

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 17:39:58 GMT

First Hug? kiley.
First Kiss? cierra.
First Song Heard? haha uhmm...i dont really remember.
New friend? paul.
First crush? uhm haha.
First sentence said? happy new years.
First person thought about? shane.
First movie watched? pulp fiction haha.
First alcoholic drink? tequila.
First drug? none of your business.
First dance? cierra?
First favorite band of the year? hmm mc pooh.
First instrument played? i attempted the guitar.
First clothing worn? a skirt, my cowgirl boots,a white tank, a brown sweater,and jewlery.
First gift recieved? uhm a shot hah
What do you want right now? my green tea
What is your new years resoloution? to make sure not to be friends with dumb ass fake people, and get a job and a car haha.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 17:53:15 GMT

1) Was 2005 a good year for you? most of it
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? meeting all these wonderful new people
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? bf moving to oregon..and my mom and me fighting so much
4) Where were you when 2005 began? boozing it up probably..hah..
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends?it did end and it was chill
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? i was with cierra kiley paul and cassie
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? i didnt have one
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? Not yet.
11) If yes, with who? no number 10?
12) If yes, do they know? no number 10?
13) Did you get laid?what a dumb question.
14) Do you regret it? haha yes one of them for sure
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? yes
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? I sure did.
17) Who are your favorite new friends? cassie, hilary, paul, john lu-poo-shkin, and a few other people.
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? september was amazing.
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? yes
20) How many different US states did you travel to in 2005? </b>two</b>
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? yeah my bf moved
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? Too many.
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? not sure
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? hmm there is so many
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? a few...and i accidently deleted #25 haha
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? fall out boy with panic at the disko and the starting line
28) i accidently deleted it haha again.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 16:57:02 GMT

yeah i pretty much love her.
alot.
she is always there for me.
and she is one of the very few real friends i have.
all i have to say is.
you treat me how you want to be treated.

anwser this...
if your friend told you she/he had a crush on someone would you
even try getting with she/he or even flirt.
cause thats not a real friend to me.
and yeah just let me tell you...you do stupid shit like that to me
or my real friends and i wont be nice.at all.
haha

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 18:18:18 GMT

all i know is i havent been myself.
someones walking all over me and you know what fuck that.
haha its not happening anymore.
im over bullshit.
i was independent and you know what im going back to that.
and staying like that.
im over guys drama.
and shitty friends.
this is shay.
if you want to be in my life then actually be true.
cause im really not into hooking up with random guys.
and friends wow some of you guys make
me not want to even leave my house
cause your so fucking annoying and just do the
same dumb shit everyday of your life.
and im over that its time to

GROW UP guys

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 18:54:11 GMT

im definatly a fool.

and everyone can FUCK OFF.

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 15:47:51 GMT

life just does'nt like me.

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 16:04:30 GMT

so shane's mom is lame.
and dont worry he will be back.

there was a point in time where i was always happy.
and just watching a movie with a friend was chill,
or driving around listening to music.
i dont know if it will ever go back to that.
but all i have to say is it's time to grow up.
i'm not saying i'm immature.
just doing the same old dumb shit every night need's to change.
and all the choices i have made have been my own choices....the wrong and right ones.
and i just miss the old day's.
gjfgjdgjuetfn
Shane's going to be gone for a few months.
this is so hard for me.
i know no one believe's us but we do love each other.
we fight, but in the end i just love being with him.
he makes me feel safe.
he's gunna come back and visit a few times.
i dont know how this is gunna turn out.
but all i know is that whatever happens is for the best.
and if we are really in love then we can get through this.

it's going to be so hard to say goodbye.

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 17:54:27 GMT

so basically, i love my friends.
and my boyfriend i love him.
hopefully i can see him today.
we haven't been on the best terms.
and i really have to talk to him about alot of shit.
my nose hurts.
i have a stuffy nose.
and i haven't slept well at all.
i got a few hours yesturday.
go me.
the night before i didnt even get a minute of sleep.
and right now im wide awake.
not even tired.
blah.
i'm honestly in love with shane thomas brown.
i hope he really does feel the same way.
i miss him.
things arent at it's best right now.
some of my friend's dont even understand.
i'm dropping many.
people are so fake.
i know i say that alot but really they are.
i miss alot of people.
i really miss a few people i haven't seen in a while, such as
Hilary
Kristine
Elliot
Tiffany
Stevie
Eric
Natalie
Devin
Hannah
Christina
Kiley
Brian
Becky
Abbie
yeah and others.
i want to see all of you them like asap.

i'm honestly way to nice.
i give people to many chances when they dont deserve it.
i'm honestly a really good friend.
i'm not being stuck up or anything.
but if i love you then i will do anything for you.
im not just gunna go around being like omg i love then when you walk away talk shit.
if i have a problem with you i will tell you.
if your acting weird i will tell you.
if your not being yourself i will tell you.
if your doing something stupid i will tell you.
if your my close friend you will already know that.
i just dont understand how people can be so fake.

whatever, it's not gunna bug me they can go have fun, make friend's then lose them in a week.
that's not for me.
i CHERISH my friends more than anything.

oh and once again
I LOVE

SHANE THOMAS BROWN.

and i he better come over today.
haha
peacee latee.

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 18:16:42 GMT

im going through one of the toughest times in my life right now.
my moms crazy and is going crazy cause she doesnt have control.
my dad and his gf fight way to much.
her kids are psycho and freak out at times.
i dont talk to any of my family anymore.
most of them disown me because i moved out of my moms.
oh well i couldnt handle her shit.
my boyfriend that i love,yeah everyone LOVE, might be moving away and i will barely see him.
my grades are dropping.
i realized some of my friends are not even real friends this weekend.
but i also realized some of my friends are.
and i love them.
i just want this to be over with.
i want to be happy again.

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 00:15:23 GMT

HAPPY THANKSGIVING.
even though i really dont care for this day that much.
hopefully get rich or die trying tonight.
i miss my boy.
vhjfhjhgjkghkghjkfg
hahaha

yeah.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 17:01:11 GMT

I AM: content with life right now
I WANT: to change the little things
I HAVE: a messed up, yet wonderful family
I WISH: everyone would grow up alittle bit
I HATE: this music thats playing right now
I MISS: my mom
I FEAR: being alone
I HEAR: my teacher yelling at someone
I SEARCH: for real people(that's a difficult task)
I WONDER: if i die who will care that im gone?
I REGRET: ever being mean to someone just cause i was in a bad mood
I ALWAYS: cry, even over little things
I AM NOT: just another girl
I AM: the girl dancing and singing in the car next to you with a horrible voice..i dont even care though.
I WILL: make a diffrence somehow
I DANCE: to music that makes me smile
I SING: my heart out in rachels car haha
I WRITE: when i need to let my feels out
I LOSE: my mind sometimes
I CONFUSE: everyone
I SHOULD: be more open minded about everything

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 16:40:42 GMT

i got my monroe pierced.
hah
ill have pictures soon.
also...is it just me or does everyone seem faker and faker by the day?
its ridiculous.
its honestly really sad.
fuck it, who can i actually trust.
there's only a select few that i can actually talk to that actually listen to me and care about what i have to say.
and i love those select few.
everyone else don't even bother being my friend.
i need real friends.
not ones that i can "party" with.

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 17:53:40 GMT

So im getting my monroe peirced hopefully today if not today
then sometime this week.
im excited

yeah.

oh and can i say this weekend was amazing.
yeah it was.
i loved meeting everyone.
im gunna be going to this marilyn monroe thing with hannah and christina and some other wonderful people soon.

it will be fun.
haha.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 17:34:04 GMT

dont i look happy in that picture.
so i want everything to get better.
like that.
everyone seems so unhappy.
even me.
i hate it.
if it doesnt change ill have to change things in my life again.
which i honestly dont want to do.
but i just might have too.
blahhh dhggfjfg

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 05:40:33 GMT

so we were bored.

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 19:22:56 GMT

k so im bored.
and im thinking about dying my hair brown and red
or black and red fghgdbdf i duno.

old pictures are fun.

memorys are amazing.
just random pictures on my photobucket haha<3

OMG

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 16:18:08 GMT

so basically last night was fucking amazing other
than getting hit in the face.

fucking Panic at the disco was amazing
along with FALL OUT BOY.hgjkfgjrgfjgfgjkfhkfdk

Starting line was amazing hahah loved there costumes.
Motion City soundtrack and boys night out was amazing as well.
it was a good show
and everyone i was with was amazing.
Blah if you didnt go you missed out.
sucks for you.
<3

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 17:29:10 GMT

okay so uhm...this weekend has been fucking chill.
i seriously loved meeting all these new wonderful people.
and cierra is sleeping.
thats what i should be doing so peace.

i have an idea!

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 16:31:59 GMT

why dont you all stop being fake.
and maybe grow up alittle?

it could'nt hurt.
i love how people shit there and talk shit on their "BEST FRIEND"
haha what a joke.

i'm sorry but can anyone really be trusted?
is anyone real anymore?

it's rare.
honestly..if you have a problem with me say something.
i rather have that than you come up and give me a hug and tell me
you miss me.
HA!
oh and if you're "BEST FRIEND" slept with your boyfriend
would you still be that persons friend?

cause i definatly would'nt.
but i guess people dont have enough respect for themselves these days.

and wow this weekend i saw 12-13 year olds smoking.
wtf.
seriously that is so sad.
i asked them where they got it.
they stole it from there parents.
or there brothers gave it to them.

COME ON.
parents need to pay more attention to whats going on.
and brother's or sister's that's fucked up.
i would never give my brother's or sister a cig.
or anything.

it's depressing.

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 17:28:59 GMT

OMG
so i have big news for everyone!

LAURA OH IS A LESBO FAGGOT DYKE.
(and she wants me)

hahaha<3

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 00:25:37 GMT

life is crazy right now.
i love how everything hits you all at once.
im having major family problems.
going to court soon.
i love my bf.
and moving in with me would be chill.
but it's still alot to think about.
my dads best friend died.
some friends just are so lame.
that they're getting cut from my life.